i had no idea, of course, of how badly it would become under obama care where all of those trends are really accentuated. even though medicine say wonderfully noble life, i felt outside the walls of the hospital there was history going on, az know you know as your involvement in politics. you want to be involved in that because so much, so much of other people's lives depend on getting it right. >> this book in many ways, i think, introduced people to who you are. they see you on special report. they know what you think. they know what you believe. they read your column. the personal side of charles krauthammer had never been revealed like this. was any of the reluctance to sort of open yourself up like that because of the background of psychiatry and you want to analyze others and didn't want to let others see you? did that have anything to do with it at all? >> um not sure that that's the reason. i think it's because when i write my column i try not to use the word i. this is in contrast to a certain president of the united states who can't leer his throat without saying the word i.